Saturday, October 31, 2009

Office Space

I used to love my job. I used to get a high, a sort of euphoria, when I see a new production issue logged to the team. I know I’m good with what I do and I almost always get the job done.

But that love has gone to semi-hatred in a span of five months. I almost hate my job. I don’t like going to work. It has become a chore, a hassle. I don't like it that no production issues or requests are coming in that I could sink my teeth into. I don't like it that forums and vendor sites related to my job are either blocked or access is limited. I don’t like sitting on my ass for nine hours with not much to do but watching out for breaking news on www.inquirer.net, staring at MS Outlook, or discreetly watching The X-Files on my Ipod.

Friends have told me that I must be the luckiest guy in the world. I get paid to sit and surf the internet and write blog drafts. I tell them having idle time for once or twice in a month is good. But for 4 months and counting?

My brain cells are stagnant. They’re asleep. They need to be woken up and do some serious exercise.

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I thrive on teamwork. On quick lunch outs. On small non-work-related chats within an 8-hour shift.

Now, how do I survive on a team who are on war with each other? Where One gives Another the cold shoulder because Another earns more than the One? Where the boss does not try to defend his subordinates in times of head-butting with upper management? Where the boss is meek and assertiveness is an alien word? Where, in short, the boss has absolutely no leadership skills?

Working on a team such as this one sucks the life out of me. Signing in on to this job was a mistake.


24 comments:

WCS Minor Circuit said...

We all have had jobs like that. I'm like you in that I can't NOT do anything for a prolonged period of time (weeks, months), even if I am getting paid for my lack of activity. Some people may enjoy doing nothing all day long and still get a paycheck, but if I were to do that I'd feel as if my life has been wasted. Sadly, I don't have advice for you though. Just... be patient and jump on the next opportunity you get? I guess that's all you can do.

DRAKE said...

pareho pala tayo!hahah! Kaibahan sa atin eh, dito open ako sa internet, Ym at kung ano ano pa! Kaya somehow eh masarap talaga ang buhay, pero tulad ng sabi mo NAKAKABOBO talaga!

Hehhee

ingat lagi!

Anonymous said...

wow i sound like you LOL i guess the secret is to try finding something beautiful in where you are in now. may we survive our jobs.

Fine Life Folk said...

Terrible, terrible days. Well, months for you. With nothing much to do, mayroon pang office politics of that level? It seems inevitable anyway since the mind is idle. To think that you have to bear that grind, what, 5 or 6 days a week? This is where love life comes in to compensate LOL!

engel said...

while i'm not necessarily hating my job, i really feel you.

i have the same kind of workload everyday these days where i work.

John Ahmer said...

Lucky Me,
I have access to blog and do blog hopping when i am not busy : )
"... if you what you are doin' youll never get bored of it"

escape said...

same here. i do check inquirer's site everyday in the office. i also check www.mb.com.ph

Raft3r said...

pinakaayaw kong word - used
kasi past na, eh
mahirap ng ibalik

Visual Velocity said...

I'm thinking of resigning next year. Sabay tayo? :D

len said...

Start looking for a another job when you feel you're not growing with the company -- an unsolicited advice. :p

Eloisa said...

Hmm..sounds like you're in a fix, C. It DOES sound boring...it's like slacking or bumming around, only you're behind your desk. and for nine hours pa...the company you keep isn't helping.

what to do, what to do? Write a memo, perhaps? Like Jerry McGuire did? :-)

Raft3r said...

hwag muna mag-quit
mahirap ang buhay
kahit paano
money is still a huge motivator
tama ba?
hehe

The Scud said...

wcs minor circuit, i am hunting for new opportunities. hopefully by year's end. work sucks.

The Scud said...

drake, ma-swerte ka. ang kinatutuwaan ko na blog sites blocked din sa opis. bad trip.

The Scud said...

prinsesa musang, madaming magagandang tanawin sa opisina. kaharap ko pa. nyahaha.

The Scud said...

fine life folk, sana nga meron lab layp kaso wala. baka meron ka kilala naghahanap dyan. kidding. :D

The Scud said...

engel, buti ka pa di umabot sa hate. ako andun na. its eating me up alive.

The Scud said...

wait, some guys are just unlucky. :(

The Scud said...

dong, i visit that site too. pati na rin philippine star.

The Scud said...

raft3r, pwede yan ibalik pag nakalipat. baka meron opening dyan. kahit tagalinis ng computer nyo. hehe.

The Scud said...

andy, new year new job. yan ang balak ko. hehe.

The Scud said...

len, doing that na. sana may mahanap. wish me luck!

The Scud said...

sonia, great idea! tapos email ko sa global distro. lol.

The Scud said...

raft3r, tama ka. pera pera lang yan. nyahaha.