Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The Break-Up

I was in love. I am still in love. Then this morning she broke the news that I've been dreading for the past month. Cool off daw muna kami.

I froze. I felt numb. Cold. I started to shiver. I felt like life, for a moment, was sucked out of me. I wanted to fight for us but she does not want to. I felt powerless.

I told her I had so much love to give but she does not want any of it. So I let her go.

I stayed true to my promise that if ever she wants out I won't beg for her to stay. I won't get mad. I won't curse which is totally out of character.

I wished her a good life and that she would meet someone who could give her the happiness she did not find in me.

I still feel like crap.

I got dumped.

23 comments:

The Gasoline Dude said...

Hmmm... 'di ba magkaiba naman ang break-up sa cool-off?

The Scud said...

gasdude > indefinite cool off. sabi niya huwag na daw ako umasa na babalik sya. brokenhearted si scud. :-(

gillboard said...

kung hindi para sayo... di talaga... ayus lang yan... it just means someone better is meant for you...

isipin mo na lang it's not your loss... it's hers

atticus said...

errr. well... whew. ammmm.

red wine? beer? shoot tayo?

(punyemas na word verification iyan: pasts. okinawajapan!)

gillboard said...

kung hindi para sayo... di talaga... ayus lang yan... it just means someone better is meant for you...

isipin mo na lang it's not your loss... it's hers

The Scud said...

gillboard > salamat. that helped.

atticus > beer! i want beer. lots of it. hehe. i cramped the 3-day weekend with activities too. ayaw ko mag-isip.

Andy Briones said...

Oo nga, badtrip nga yung nangyari.

Ako ang ginagawa ko pag badtrip ako nag-be-busy-busyhan ako: anything from jogging, reading, going out. But I do everything alone; hirap kasi pag may kasama, baka sa kanya ko mabuhos sama ng loob ko, ehehe.

The Scud said...

andy > i'm planning it na pero with friends. ang hirap ng nag-iisa.

Sonia said...

it's never easy, you know. It'll pass too...(I can't offer any concrete advice yet, though)

len said...

Wallow in pain for a while and then move forward. I'm sure someone better will come along -- some unsolicited blurbs.

Curbside Puppet said...

sige lang. wag mo madalain ang recovery. let nature take its course.

bampiraako said...

kaya mo yan. madami talaga astronauts ngayon. climate change na kasi.

The Scud said...

sonia > i know now how you felt back then. hehe. sana lang it won't take me that long to get over. sorry. :(

len > hanggang kelan ang "a while"?

curbside prophet > baby steps nga sabi nila. i'm keeping myself busy outside work. dyahe kasi petiks ako sa opis.

The Scud said...

bampiraako > climate change pala ang dahilan. lintek na klima yan. lol.

elYAS said...

aww. sakto ang timing. halos lahat yata ng bloggers ngayon broken hearted.
[dahil kaya sa swine virus? :D]

i feel for you kuya. i know your smart enough to move forward in life. apir!

*nga pla, napadaan, kita ko lang link mo sa comment box ni bampiraako. kudos!

xoxo krisler xoxo said...

huwag mo lang madaliin ang recovery mo...sa umpisa lng mahirap..sabi nga nila, the pain will never be gone but you will learn to live with it..kaya mo yan..aja!!.. xD

len said...

Mga 10 years? hehe
Ngiti lang. :-)))

the donG said...

itulog mo na lang muna. hehehe... what's good is you did your part. im sure someone else deserves your love.

The Scud said...

elyas > madami pala kami? di pala ako nag-iisa. haha.

xoxo krisler xoxo > antayin na lang ba maging manhid? hehe.

len > ang tagal pa nun! 10 days pwede?

The Scud said...

dong > sino? sino? im curious. nyahaha.

Raft3r said...

never ko naintindihan ang concept ng cool off
ano yon?
type ka pa rin nga
but she needs space
women...

Kevin said...

I don't get her. Cool off is like "cooling down" from a relationship. It's totally different from a break-up. However, an indefinite cool-off equates to a break-up, so why didn't she just called it a break-up after all?

Maybe it's just a euphemism for her not to "break" your heart. But it still did.

Anyway, just breathe in and out.

The Scud said...

raft3r > hehe. spaceman na nga ako ngayon. lost in space.

kevin > kaya nga kinukulit ko sya. something happened yesterday and it's finally over. i'll live. si scud ata ito. :D