Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The Break-Up

I was in love. I am still in love. Then this morning she broke the news that I've been dreading for the past month. Cool off daw muna kami.

I froze. I felt numb. Cold. I started to shiver. I felt like life, for a moment, was sucked out of me. I wanted to fight for us but she does not want to. I felt powerless.

I told her I had so much love to give but she does not want any of it. So I let her go.

I stayed true to my promise that if ever she wants out I won't beg for her to stay. I won't get mad. I won't curse which is totally out of character.

I wished her a good life and that she would meet someone who could give her the happiness she did not find in me.

I still feel like crap.

I got dumped.
at

23 comments:

  1. The Gasoline DudeApril 28, 2009 at 1:22 PM

    Hmmm... 'di ba magkaiba naman ang break-up sa cool-off?

    ReplyDelete
  2. The ScudApril 28, 2009 at 1:37 PM

    gasdude > indefinite cool off. sabi niya huwag na daw ako umasa na babalik sya. brokenhearted si scud. :-(

    ReplyDelete
  3. gillboardApril 28, 2009 at 2:43 PM

    kung hindi para sayo... di talaga... ayus lang yan... it just means someone better is meant for you...

    isipin mo na lang it's not your loss... it's hers

    ReplyDelete
  4. atticusApril 28, 2009 at 2:44 PM

    errr. well... whew. ammmm.

    red wine? beer? shoot tayo?

    (punyemas na word verification iyan: pasts. okinawajapan!)

    ReplyDelete
  5. gillboardApril 28, 2009 at 2:55 PM

    kung hindi para sayo... di talaga... ayus lang yan... it just means someone better is meant for you...

    isipin mo na lang it's not your loss... it's hers

    ReplyDelete
  6. The ScudApril 28, 2009 at 6:14 PM

    gillboard > salamat. that helped.

    atticus > beer! i want beer. lots of it. hehe. i cramped the 3-day weekend with activities too. ayaw ko mag-isip.

    ReplyDelete
  7. Visual VelocityApril 28, 2009 at 7:25 PM

    Oo nga, badtrip nga yung nangyari.

    Ako ang ginagawa ko pag badtrip ako nag-be-busy-busyhan ako: anything from jogging, reading, going out. But I do everything alone; hirap kasi pag may kasama, baka sa kanya ko mabuhos sama ng loob ko, ehehe.

    ReplyDelete
  8. The ScudApril 28, 2009 at 8:45 PM

    andy > i'm planning it na pero with friends. ang hirap ng nag-iisa.

    ReplyDelete
  9. EloisaApril 28, 2009 at 9:52 PM

    it's never easy, you know. It'll pass too...(I can't offer any concrete advice yet, though)

    ReplyDelete
  10. lenApril 28, 2009 at 10:22 PM

    Wallow in pain for a while and then move forward. I'm sure someone better will come along -- some unsolicited blurbs.

    ReplyDelete
  11. JerickApril 29, 2009 at 2:20 AM

    sige lang. wag mo madalain ang recovery. let nature take its course.

    ReplyDelete
  12. bampiraakoApril 29, 2009 at 7:08 AM

    kaya mo yan. madami talaga astronauts ngayon. climate change na kasi.

    ReplyDelete
  13. The ScudApril 29, 2009 at 8:26 AM

    sonia > i know now how you felt back then. hehe. sana lang it won't take me that long to get over. sorry. :(

    len > hanggang kelan ang "a while"?

    curbside prophet > baby steps nga sabi nila. i'm keeping myself busy outside work. dyahe kasi petiks ako sa opis.

    ReplyDelete
  14. The ScudApril 29, 2009 at 8:26 AM

    bampiraako > climate change pala ang dahilan. lintek na klima yan. lol.

    ReplyDelete
  15. Yas JaysonApril 29, 2009 at 11:58 AM

    aww. sakto ang timing. halos lahat yata ng bloggers ngayon broken hearted.
    [dahil kaya sa swine virus? :D]

    i feel for you kuya. i know your smart enough to move forward in life. apir!

    *nga pla, napadaan, kita ko lang link mo sa comment box ni bampiraako. kudos!

    ReplyDelete
  16. krislerApril 29, 2009 at 5:14 PM

    huwag mo lang madaliin ang recovery mo...sa umpisa lng mahirap..sabi nga nila, the pain will never be gone but you will learn to live with it..kaya mo yan..aja!!.. xD

    ReplyDelete
  17. lenApril 29, 2009 at 6:43 PM

    Mga 10 years? hehe
    Ngiti lang. :-)))

    ReplyDelete
  18. escapeApril 29, 2009 at 8:06 PM

    itulog mo na lang muna. hehehe... what's good is you did your part. im sure someone else deserves your love.

    ReplyDelete
  19. The ScudApril 29, 2009 at 9:56 PM

    elyas > madami pala kami? di pala ako nag-iisa. haha.

    xoxo krisler xoxo > antayin na lang ba maging manhid? hehe.

    len > ang tagal pa nun! 10 days pwede?

    ReplyDelete
  20. The ScudApril 29, 2009 at 9:56 PM

    dong > sino? sino? im curious. nyahaha.

    ReplyDelete
  21. Raft3rMay 3, 2009 at 2:17 PM

    never ko naintindihan ang concept ng cool off
    ano yon?
    type ka pa rin nga
    but she needs space
    women...

    ReplyDelete
  22. KevinMay 4, 2009 at 12:08 PM

    I don't get her. Cool off is like "cooling down" from a relationship. It's totally different from a break-up. However, an indefinite cool-off equates to a break-up, so why didn't she just called it a break-up after all?

    Maybe it's just a euphemism for her not to "break" your heart. But it still did.

    Anyway, just breathe in and out.

    ReplyDelete
  23. The ScudMay 4, 2009 at 1:14 PM

    raft3r > hehe. spaceman na nga ako ngayon. lost in space.

    kevin > kaya nga kinukulit ko sya. something happened yesterday and it's finally over. i'll live. si scud ata ito. :D

    ReplyDelete